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Sunday, April 01, 2007
4:27 AM
i dunnoe wat am i supposed to write, to talk about or to even care about..
im not invisible,
im not blind..
my heart still feels something..
from the start i wanted so much so much of your concern, but it never came..
all the things that have came were hurtful words and actions..
again and again..
from the beginning till now, my heart has not stopped getting hurt from all these shit..
again and again my heart is like being squeezed damn hard..
i didnt realise you were that important to me until today..
but all i get is to see some "surprising" stuff from you..
i know im not supposed to even probe a single shit about this whole damn thing..
i guess im just being so stupid..
crying over such a person like you again and again..
and i hate myself for that..
i thought i can come face to face with you without feeling anything..
i really did told myself i must try..
but it still failed in the end..
coming eye to eye with you..
and all i get to see is "something" that really hurt me deep inside..
at that moment i can feel the gush of tears coming up..
but i still put up a strong front for as long as you were there..
i know i cant stay anymore longer..
the moment i stepped out, eyes went red and there comes the tears..
why the hell am i always crying silently behind your back..
this is so damn ridiculous..
im not only stupid for that,
im also stupid for being there for you silently..
you will never ever appreciate that..
or perhaps you dont need that at all..
because there is already someone..
no matter how much i tell myself i must give you my blessings..
i just cant do it....
after saying so much, you will never ever understand my feelings..
because to you, im just an invisible person,
from the start is like that, in the future will also be like that..
you wll never ever sense my presence, because i will never ever be important to you..
as said by cher
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Chermaine Lee, 20
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