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Monday, March 05, 2007
11:08 PM
i need something to keep me busy..
really busy..
luckily there's work..
but im not concentrating at all..
why must u raise me up high this moment, and throw me down hard the next moment..
i've waited.. yes, waited..
when i've thought that nothing will ever happen between us, and had also decided to let everything go, u suddenly said things which let me see hopes..
what u said made my decision wavered..
im totally in a state of suspense, i didnt know what to do, to let go? or to continue waiting?
after much consideration, i've considered what u said and all, i've decided to wait..
but everything changed within 48 hrs..
the day before, everything was FINE.. going on SMOOTHLY..
but the next day, you have to come and tell me some shit..
at that moment, i've got so many things to ask..
but i didnt, because i see no reason to ask further since you didnt even tried to explain the reason to your decision..
i dont deny that i really broke down terribly when i saw what u said..
YES! it's that hurting..
i think from now till i-dont-know-when, i will avoid all outings with you around..
perhaps i just dont wanna know the truth and your explanation anymore..
say me a coward, say me a loser..
to me, i rather some things to be kept forever in order not to cause anymore hurt..
i told myself countless times not to tear, but whenever i think about you, the tears just cant stop rolling down..
i feel so lost now..
i dont blame you, i dont hate you..
perhaps i just need some time to sort out my own feelings..
i dont think you will ever come across this entry..
but all i want to tell you is, i'll always be there..
yes.. just for you..
as said by cher
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Chermaine Lee, 20
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